Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Somehow throughout the hol, i feel that ties are getting weaker, drift is getting bigger and maybe i shouldnt care so much already. maybe im just thinking too much. yes there are different priorities now and many other factors are playing a part in all our hectic schedule. maybe he was right, once one leaves to study abroad things will never be the same back home no matter how hard we (the overseas students) try to get everything back to normal when we fly back. it sucks, hurts and is terribly exhausting. to try to hold everything together. to keep the same bonds as intact as they were before we left is like doing the impossible. yes we've forged new bonds elsewhre, but is it too much to ask to continue as per normal with the old ones? must we really give up and let go in order for the new bonds to grow stronger? is that the sacrifice? cause i really dont know what to do. its as if we were never back. sometimes it feels as if melbourne is more of a home now as compared to the place we spent most of our lives in. Everyone here agrees that it was as if we were never separated for the 5weeks. yes 5weeks is alot different from 6mths apart. but still, why couldnt I get the same feeling back in sg like the one I had when i came back. This is totally pushing me more away. And maybe I might join some of them and not go back in June if it really is pointless to go back and just be unhappy. FML- in the context of the friendship bonds and not really my life life since I AM and MUST be thankful for everything. sighhh...
I dont know what I should or should not do anymore. Its getting real tiring and making me really unhappy when i keep thinking about it.
7:49 AM
INTRO
L is for the way u LOOK at me
O is for the ONLY one I see
V is VERY VERY extraordinary
E is EVEN more than anyone that you can adore
Like a perfect scene
From a movie screen
We're a dream come true
Suited perfectly
For eternity
Me and you
Everyday, I need you even more
And the night time too
There's no way I could ever let you go
Even if I wanted to
ME!
M-S-M
I(II)-N-A-T-M
Shopaholic
Piercings<3
Tattoos<3
*Might* fall into the materialist category
LOVES
Leather, Rosegold, Gold, Silver<3<3<3
Accessories Addict<3
Spiky, studded, sparkly goods
Bagaholic
Watch Collector
I live to eat<3
THE WANTS
To secure a stable job in the near future
<3
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